It always amazes me when God answers my prayers. I believe this is God telling me to TRUST him, he will provide for me. Sometimes I pray and don't expect anything to happen, when something amazing happens, I feel so overwhelmed. Lately, I have been praying for vision, spiritual vision. At church, my prayers were answered. The preacher talked about how to gain spiritual vision! I couldn’t believe my ears. The sermon encouraged me and lifted my spirits. I felt refreshed. God really does speak to us in so many ways. He's not a distant God, he is actively working in our lives.
So, I'm getting married in May. And honestly, it's not that stressful. Everyone always asks me if I'm stressed, and I always say no. They probably think I'm lying but really, it's not that bad. Actually, it's really fun. Oh, and one of the best parts about getting married is registering. Does that sound superficial? I have never in my life been able to walk into a store and scan every item I want. I don’t even have to look at the price tag! haha! It's awesome! And even though I might not get it, it's still fun to act like I am. We actually received our first wedding gift via UPS and I was so excited! This is so much fun.
All I have left is ordering the cupcakes and the photographer. I know they are very important but I don’t feel like it’s going to be too hard to handle. I guess when your wedding's on a Monday everyone is always available. So, if you want a stress-free wedding, pick it on a weekday.
In a few months I am going to start my life. Wow. That sounds a little scary but very intriguing at the same time. By the end of the semester, I will be a married woman!! YEA!! I now have this little obsession with everything that has to do with weddings and home decor. One of the fun parts about getting married is registering. I cannot believe that I can just walk into a store with this amazing magical scanner and select all the things I want, without looking at the price tag. It is AWESOME.
Brad and I went to the bridal fair they have in little rock. It's so overwhelming looking at all the venues set up. I really wish I never signed up to win so many things because of course I didnt win anything and now I have a million emails about tuxedos, catering, and wedding venues.
So far, that's the only trouble I have had. All in all, the whole engagement has been a really nice experience and it's not as stressful as people say it is. Whenever I do get stressed, I just try to remember that this is about Brad and I committing our life-long love to one another. It's not about the right shade of pink or how the food tastes.
Boundless- endless, without time Moment- an indefinintely short period of time; instant
A lot of things can happen in a moment.
In fact, while I was typing my last post, which only took about thirty minutes, I received a phone call. I looked down at the phone that said, "Dad calling..." Why was my dad calling me? He usually stays super busy during work hours, so this was different. My stomach did a somersault. That phone call was one of the worst phone calls of my life. I found out that my granddad had passed away. It was in that moment that time seemed to stop. I was in shock. I knew he had been sick, but still, there's no way he could have died. Not my granddad. The one who took me to school and picked me up every day. The one who played basketball with me after school. The one who taught me about Jesus and baptized me in the same river that he was baptized many years ago. The one who taught me how to drive when I was 12. The one who roofed houses until he was 87 years old. Not him. I found it quite ironic that I was talking about change in my post and in that boundless moment my life changed forever.
He stood there bringing March against his thought,
And yet too ready to believe the most.
"Oh, that's the Paradise-in-bloom," I said;
And truly it was fair enough for flowers
had we but in us to assume in march
Such white luxuriance of May for ours.
We stood a moment so in a strange world,
Myself as one his own pretense deceives;
And then I said the truth (and we moved on).
A young beech clinging to its last year's leaves.
I absolutely love the poems of Robert Frost. For example, in this poem he's taking in the beauty of nature that surrounds him. As he's doing this, it seems like he's acknowledging the changes of the seasons and comparing them to the changes in everyday life. At first these changes might seem intimidating, but once we finally accept those changes and move on, we are able to see the beauty that came from them.
I feel like everyone can relate to Frost. As humans, we just don't like a lot of change. What do we do on the first day of school in our classes? We pick and seat and stay in the same seat for the rest of the semester. If someone is in "our spot" we are forced to take a new one. It's silly, but we don't like even to change our seat. Now if you take that and times it by 100, there are more dramatic changes in our lives. Like broken families, first loves, and new friendships. Going through college, your life is FULL of changes. Right now I know I'm in a state of constant change. I can feel myself ending one chapter of my life and entering a new, independent chapter. MY chapter.
When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I put childish ways behind me. - 1 Corinthians 13:11